轉眼瞬間，6個月結束了，最初決定在畢業後，到希望之芽實習想法很簡單，希望在進入職場前，能對很有興趣的海外NGO有更多了解，讓自己更有方向的選擇日後職涯規劃，也希望自己大學的專業-華語教學能有地方發揮。
這樣的決定卻有點難讓家人完全理解，所以開始實習後，心裡一直想著要獲取很多收穫，證明給家人看這半年並不是浪費時間，但收穫這件事不是想要就能馬上感覺，更多時候是不斷撞牆遇到挫折，然後回首，才發現之前的挫折傷痕已經累積成滿滿的能量收穫。
實習前期，因為到了一切都不熟悉的海外，許多事情都不在掌握中，現在，是回首那些挫折的時候了，這半年的實習日子，到底收穫了什麼？

首先，是對「刻板印象」這件事，有了更深一層的看法。
記得來「柬埔寨」之前，為了嘗試了解柬埔寨，上網搜尋很多相關資料，在網路上卻總看到「海外志工」、「貧窮」這幾個關鍵字，因此對這裡的既定印象就固定了。到了當地，看到柬埔寨出現我認為的「發展中」國家常見的東西，常常會不經意有「這裡居然有○○○」的看法，現在想起來實在是井底之蛙。

例如：起初以為柬埔寨因為在「發展中」所以這裡的人完全不在意「環保」，但其實在這裡重要節日後，舉辦活動的區域有大量垃圾，都會看到許多學生或組織，自主發起清理、整理環境的活動，也常在這裡的市集，看見當地藝術家創作環保藝術品，想讓更多人透過作品了解環保的重要性，並不像我起初以為的沒有全然沒有環保意識。

網路世界很方便，可以讓我們不用到這個國家就能看見它的樣貌，但如果只是全然相信網路上的片面訊息，未去思考資訊的真實性，阻絕了自己對這個國家的想像，真的太可惜！還好，在這半年的時間，有機會用自己的雙眼去顛覆那些刻板印象、聆聽當地聲音嘗試聽見真實想法，練習用腦袋思考各種事件為何發生。
越是親自去體會、認識柬埔寨，對這裡的所有一切越是著迷，即便它有著與我的固有文化截然不同的生活方式、思考模式，卻停止不住想要繼續多花點時間認識它的想法。

包含我那些獨一無二又有趣的學生們，在這半年的時間與他們朝夕相處的過程，更讓自己確定自己是享受當老師的。課程中，不時會碰到了一些實際面的困難（例如學生因為學校的課程關係或要幫忙家裡做家事，很難每堂課都準時加入，該如何調整孩子們間的進度落差），這些實際面會讓我無法按照自己預期的課程進度走，時常覺得為難，但在每次的調整後，看見孩子們即使因為有時候家裡、學校關係沒辦法來上課，每堂課程還是能融入參與，享受在課堂的表情，課程調整的掙扎、備課的辛苦瞬間全然消失，原來我那麼喜歡當老師。到這裡實習的半年，孩子們用他們會的中文、刻意放慢速度講的柬文帶我認識他們的生活，也帶著我更認識我自己。

六個月說長不長，說短也不短，更認識自己之外，也磨掉了些自己的「粗線條」
實習期間，除了中文班同時也協助協會處理一些能幫得上忙的小事，因為在大學，自己粗線條的個性有時候會讓自己犯一些小錯，但因為是學生所以很容易得到包容。可是，在實習期間幫忙的事，有時候是代表協會，所以那些粗線條的小事，像是正式文件上打錯字，都是非必要的錯誤，細節的重要性現在才知道是多麼不可輕視。

實習生加入協會，與其說幫忙協會做事，更多的時候是協會與當地，花時間教我那些我在學校學不到的事情。沒有走在畢業後即就職的道路上，很讓人焦慮，現在卻很感謝有機會到協會實習半年。
更有信心面對自己的未來職涯，因為夠認識自己有興趣的是什麼、擅長什麼、需要加強什麼。
半年的回憶與收穫，除了將它珍藏在心裡之外，也會是驅使我未來更有自信前進的能量，與柬埔寨的緣分未完待續，下次讓我們以新的身分再次相見吧！

In a split second, my internship is ending.
After graduating from university, I decided to come to Formosa Budding Hope Organization to be an intern solely for the reasons that I want to know more about this NGO which I was interested in and hope this can provide me with more ideas to choose a future career. At the same time, I also hoped to put my university's major - Teaching Chinese for foreigners - into practice.

My family had a bit of trouble understanding my decision. Therefore, when I started my internship, I planned on obtaining and learning a lot of skills to prove to my family that my decision was not a wasting my time.
But achieving this was not something anybody could feel immediately. There will be many difficult setbacks and it is only by reflecting back on these previous setbacks will you realized that these challenges were actually accumulation of a lot of new skills.
In the early days of the internship, many things were out of my grasp because I was from aboard and was not familiar with anything. Now, it is time to look back on those setbacks and ask myself what I had gained in this half-year internship.

First of all, I have a deeper understanding of "stereotype".
Before coming to "Cambodia", in order to try to understand the country, I searched the Internet for a lot of relevant information. However, I always saw the keywords "overseas volunteers" and "poverty" on the Internet results, so my impression of the place was as such. When I arrived in Cambodia and saw things that are common in "developing" countries, I inadvertently thought to myself "there is actually ○○○". Now I think of myself as a frog in the bottom of the well.

For example: At first, I thought that since Cambodia is in "development", the people here don't care about "environmental protection”. But after every important festival, many students or organizations would organize to clean up the garbage in the area where the event is held. The signs of maintaining the environment are also often evident in the marketplace. I saw local artists creating environmentally-friendly artworks which helped more people understand the importance of environmental protection through their art. It was not like what I had perceived and thought that there would be no environmental awareness here.

The online world is very convenient. It allows us to see what it looks like without going to this country. However, if we only believe in one-sided information on the Internet and do not think about the authenticity of the information, it will prevent us from truly knowing about this country. It's a pity! Fortunately, in this half year, I have the opportunity to use my eyes to subvert those stereotypes, listen to local voices, try to hear real ideas, and practice thinking about why various events occur.

The more I get to know Cambodia in person, the more I am fascinated by everything here. Even though this place’s way of life and thinking were completely different from my own culture, I couldn’t stop thinking about wanting to spend more time knowing more about this country.

Including my unique and interesting students, the process of getting along with them during this half-year period made me more convinced that I enjoy being a teacher. From time to time in the class, I encountered some practical difficulties (For example, it is sometimes difficult for students to join each class on time due to school’s curriculum or having the need to help their household with work). These tough realities would make me unable to follow the course schedule I had planned and I often need to spend more time to adjust. But after each adjustment, I could see that even if the children couldn’t come to class because of family and school schedules, each lesson could still be integrated and enjoyed. It turned out that I liked being a teacher so much that the struggle in adjusting the lessons and the hard work of preparing for the class would instantly disappear. Six months after the start of my internship here, mixing the few Chinese words they can speak with their Cambodian language, the children slowly brought me into their lives and helped me know myself better.

Six months is not too long or too short. But, in addition to knowing myself, the time spent here had also worn away some of my "carelessness".
During the internship, in addition to the Chinese class, I also assisted the organization in doing small tasks that can help the locals. My careless personality I developed from my time as a student in college caused me to sometimes make some mistakes. But those mistakes are minor.
However, the tasks that I performed in my internship represent the organization. Regarding those careless mistakes, such as some typing errors in official documents, should be an unnecessary problem. Without a doubt, it taught me about the importance of detail.

When joining the organization as an intern, it is not so much to help the organization do things but more often having the organization and the local take the time to teach me things I can't learn in school.
I did not walk on the path to employment after graduation. This decision in the past made me really anxious. But now, I am very grateful to have the opportunity in working as a part of the organization for half a year. I feel I have more confidence in facing my future career because I know what I am interested in, what I am good at, and what needs to be strengthened.

The memories and experiences collected from this half a year, will not only be stored in my heart, but also become the energy that will drive me to move forward in the future.
This is not the end between Cambodia and I. See you next time here with new assignments!

上課前，前一小時就出現在園區，上課後，也不馬上回家會多花三十分鐘時間在園區玩樂，這些課前、課後的時間總帶著我更能接近孩子們的生活日常。

獨一無二卻又一樣可愛，縱使有些中文學習力沒那麼快，還是很喜歡用中文嘗試跟老師說話的你們。

中文班的孩子們在最後一天中文班，準備了一些很少女的氣球給老師，希望老師能把他們當作回憶全部裝進行李箱帶回台灣。

與孩子們朝夕相處六個月，最喜歡看他們期待每堂課的表情，為了讓他們喜歡上課，花再多時間備課也很願意。

每堂中文課後，小女生們總是會來跟我擁抱說再見，這位小男生在最後幾堂中文課也跟著排隊要來和老師擁抱說再見，謝謝孩子們帶給的所有回憶。

半年來的收穫多半來自此，一群對工作熱情又有趣的同事與督導，花了很多時間帶我更認識柬埔寨與NGO工作。